Rest in Peace Ennis

"Jack used to say, "Ennis Del Mar," he used to say; "I'm gonna bring him up here one of these days, and
we'll lick this damn ranch into shape. Had some half-
baked notion the two of you was gonna move up here.
Build a cabin, help run the place." " -John Twist-

He lets Jack leaves him, but he never knew that we never wanted to let him go...

Gratitude to Joe Wright and McEwan

" Dearest Cecilia, the story can resume. The one I had been planning on that evening walk. I can become again the man who once crossed the surrey park at dusk, in my best suit, swaggering on the promise of life. The man who, with the clarity of passion, made love to you in the library. The story can resume. I will return. Find you, love you, marry you and live without shame."

-Robbie Turner-

That's how a tragic romance should do.

Un Coeur Invaincu

A mighty Heart (Un Coeur Invaincu - 2007)

I knew it, when the trailer was released, that this is something that's gonna move me deeply. However, bombarded by loads of homeworks, exams, and social activities (new interest!), it slipped through my mind to put this Michael Winterbottom's masterpiece in my have-to-be-seen-films list. Until yesterday, when I chatted with a Pakistani brother on how enthralled I am to climb either at Pakistan or India, he said, "You know right, what's going on between India and Pakistan?" The question straight away reminded me about the "Truly Moving Award" winner (awarded by Heartland Film Festival in 2007 together with another stunningly narrated film, Freedom Writer) with brilliantly tucked-in performance by Angelina Jolie and distinguished cast by Dan Futterman, Will Paton, Archie Panjabi and Irfan Khan (Ashoke Ganguli in The Namesake!), A mighty Heart. It didn't take me long to put this film in my hectic schedule, which was right after Purdue Climbers' weekly film, King Lines.


While watching a film, it is my habit to partition a film into at least two parts, so I can take a rest for while in between (applied only on downloaded films!) But this year, other than The Namesakes, this film also has pulled all of my body and attention from the beginning till the end.

Critics have been argued about A Mighty Heart's lack of novelty; how cliche the themes are, how dull the plots are and how poor the screenplay is. As from my perspective as an audience, who is the target of the filmmaker, I believe I've grabbed the film's MAIN contention. A Mighty Heart is not about retelling story about an American journalist, Daniel Pearl, who was kidnapped and brutally murdered in Karachi Pakistan (one point off from the critics!). It is a story about Marianne Pearl's sagacious heart in facing this obstacle, and most importantly is the message of love. Then, I move to the next part, which is the film's other contentions which I guess the idea of cross-cultural understanding through journalism, music and dialog. It specifically can be observed at the character of the little child, Asra, Marianne herself and Daniel. After that, only I look at the actors and actresses, whom I believe support the film's contentions very well.

The lesson I've learned from this outstanding film is that I really don't have to look at a film's cast to judge the film (of course after millions of films out there I should be selective a bit, so I won't waste my time), I just need to be clear of whatever the filmmaker wants to tell me, only then I move to other aspects!

Finally!

Barefoot In The Park - Neil Simon
Click here for the play.


This is gonna be my very last assignment and my very first play!
I'm working on memorizing the lines and choosing my own props which usually not done by actors themselves! Owh ya! I'm gonna be 'Paul'!

Reconciliation

It has been almost 2 yrs since I got to this Opportunity Land. It comes to my consciousness that by this time, this moment or this seconds, I should have known where I'm sailing to. It says on the card given by Ady before I left Malaysia that People with goals succeed because they know where they are going, firmly stick to my creatively adorn board (love it!). I'm still here wavering myself on the hastily baseless decision I've made. But, should I regret it?

I don't know any of my six-degree-separations fellow whose life has not influenced by what he has done in the past. We, personally, me, apply all the experiences heavily from the angst and joy in our past to steadily or jerkily pace on the paths we're now on. I thought I have strip-mined huge parts of my wicked childhood and teenage life in Changlun throughout Shah Alam to fuel my collisions of cultures and human beings that fill up my chest to being able to breathe easily on my path.

But now, I'm exhausted. Am I trying too hard for this? Or I haven't tried it as hard as I could? I've been twisting and turning in the space that too small. That directs my limbs to grab ALL kind of joys which could flatter up myself.

If you can't fix it, Jack, you gotta stand it -Ennis Del Mar

The List

Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head
Enough Is Enough (No More Tears)
Make Me Lose Control
Deny, Deny, Deny
Bring The Pain
Into You Like A Train
Something to Talk About
Let It Be
Thanks for the Memories
Much Too Much
Owner of a Lonely Heart
Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer
Straight to the Heart
Begin the Begin
Tell Me Sweet Little Lies
Break on Through
It's the End of the World (Part I)
(As We Know It) (Part II)
Yesterday
What Have I Done To Deserve This?
Band Aid Covers the Bullet Hole
Superstition
Under Pressure
The Name of the Game
Blues for Sister Someone
Damage Case
17 Seconds
Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response
Losing My Religion

THTR133

Janelle as Dorie - Hanif as John

(He holds out his hand to shake hers and she does, she briefly looks down and regrabs the bar)

DORIE: Oh.

JOHN: Just look up. Look up. (She Does) Better?

DORIE: Yes. (pause) I'm sorry about smoking.

JOHN: No. I was planning on giving it up...sometime...sooner or later. Maybe. (Longingly) Nasty habit

DORIE: But I bet your wife will be happy.

JOHN: I'm not married.

DORIE: (Surprised) No?

JOHN: You?

DORIE: (embarrassed) Me?! No! No...But...you?...I assumed...

JOHN: No, divorced. Traveling salesman...only she couldn't take the traveling so she moved
on.

DORIE: I'm sorry.

JOHN: (covering) Yeah, well, you get used to being alone. You get over it. You adjust.

DORIE: Isn't that the truth? Why, I don't even mind eating by myself anymore. Not as long as I have something to read. Newspaper, magazine, those little bitty sugar packets they set at the table, the ones with the....

(Suddenly, he leans over and kisses her on the cheek.)

DORIE: What did you do that for?

JOHN: I don't know...I thought if I kissed you, you'd stop talking for a minute.

DORIE: Oh.

(She looks at him. He leans over and kisses her on the lips.)

DORIE: I wasn't talking.

JOHN: No. My lips, I had to do somethingwith my lips.

DORIE: So, you didn't mean anything personal by it. It was just, sort of, reflex reaction.

JOHN: No. It wasn't totally reflex. I enjoyed it.

DORIE: You did? Oh..ah..(nervous/flustered/ she starts talking again) Did I tell you I have an aunt who lives in Dublin, GA., semi-related to Kim Basinger, You remember the movie The Natural...

(He leans over and kisses her again, on the lips)

DORIE: Lips itching for another cigarette?

JOHN: No. Partially.

DORIE: But not wholly?

JOHN: I wanted to see if I enjoyed it as much the second time as I did the first.

DORIE: Did you?

(Their lips almost touching when...suddenly they both jerk back in their seats.)

DORIE: What was that?!

JOHN: Looks like we're moving.

(Dorie looks down, grabs bar and shuts her eyes)

JOHN: Won't be long now. (looking)

DORIE: You don't think we'll go around again?

JOHN: No.

(They jerk in their seats)

JOHN: This is us.

(They both raise their arms up and let fo of the "bar")

DORIE: Yes.

(She then suddenly embarrased jumps out, extends her hand in the formal good-bye)

DORIE: It...it..has been a pleasure.

(He takes her hand)

DORIE: (newly flustered) Yes, Well...you better get going...and have that cigarette, I wouldn't want you to get in any trouble kissing every girl in the park just so you can make it through the day without smoking...I better get going.

(Shel lets go of his hand and starts to walk away, He hollers out to her)

JOHN: Dorie, you coming back next year?

DORIE: It is a tradition.

(She exits. He looks after her, smiles but doesn't follow. He takes out a cigarette, puts in his mouth, yhinks better of it, puts the cigarette back in his pocket and exits.)

This is my second open scripted scene. Being an actor in this scene is hard, but James Dean once said
"Being a good actor isn't easy. Being a man is even harder. I want to be both before I'm done."